How movies affect my life. I saw Fight Club for the second time and the scene where he holds up the store clerk that wanted to be a veterinarian, made me wonder why haven't i begun to work on my own dream. Yet the scene where he tells the guys that "we all thought we were going to grow up to be rock stars" made me feel abashed somehow. Whats wrong with wanting to be a rock star? Why is it okay to be a pet doctor but not a rock star? So I'm watching Real Sex and there is this part about a swingers' convention. It was awesome. People were just fucking and caressing everywhere, without a bit of shame. Hold that thought... Next, I see Eyes Wide Shut for the first time and there's this secret sex society. It was much more cooler than the swingers' convention because it had ritual involved. I love to dress up and dance, but the added feature of secrecy makes it much more exciting. I wish I had some privacy at home, I was listening to my Aretha CD and wanted to see if I could come anywhere near to her . You see, I have this problem, I don't know how to scream unless there's a spider around. Aretha has a very powerful voice, but you wouldn't know it just by hearing her talk. Her natural voice makes you wonder how the hell can she sing like that. Same with Whitney Houston. Anyway, I wanted to try it out, but my sister came home. She tears my rock star dream down because , I think, she's afraid that I will be hurt if I don't make it. The truth is, I don't care if I make it anymore, I just want to be able to say "At least I've tried," on my death bed. It's something I've wanted from childhood. While other children were playing with dolls and hot wheels, I was playing Madonna and Culture Club records on my Superheroes record player. Yes, I have the Like A Virgin LP. :) So where do I start?
posted by Lady Ursula at 2:31 AM