nothing new. i've actually taken a step towards getting paid for doing what i do. nearly stopped eating altogether. my secret? i actually visit those pro-ana sites. although i don't want to be anorexic, just a normal weight for my height. they have great information on fasting and for the most part it's all valid. i dare not link to them, because some Nazi out there is taking down their sites. i'm sorry but people have the right to say what's on their minds even if it kills them. i don't consider myself pro-ana or pro anything, but i do believe that we weren't made to be walking around with 3 chins and all. i often wonder what happens to the organs in the abdomen area when we become overweight. do they fall out of place or get squished. gross thought isn't it? well, it's what has been keeping me from overeating. i'm back in the geeky stuff section to refresh my memory and then pick up where i left off. i have to make note of this one incident. at the school i went to enroll in, the guy that interviewed me said something funny. He said,"Ursula when you were in high school do you remember taking a course called Algebra?" Either I look dumb as a box of rocks or he gets some real interesting box of rocks in his office for interviews! It was hilarious, i had to force myself to not fall on the floor. The way he said Algebra was if it was something mystical, the way I felt when I first heard of calculus or finite mathematics. maybe i am a rare stone. even though im unemployed and not in school i continue to study on a daily basis. perhaps that seems weird to people when they meet me. i don't think its weird because a lot of the friends i had when growing up had fathers that would be deeply engrossed in some physics or medical journal whenever i came over to visit. this seemed natural enough to me and became a habit. old habits die hard, this one, hopefully, will never have a dying day before i die myself!
posted by Lady Ursula at 6:31 AM