Still thinking about what's wrong with me and this society. Can't figure it out, so I've decided to see what is right with me and this society. What's good... is that we are moving towards, with greater speed, a model of intelligence as status and as something worthy of reverence in a person. there are still people that care

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what can I do to help make this planet a better place to live? I say that I want to do this all the time. Yet I have not really done anything except meaningless things like putting my cart back at the shopping market, I put links up for worthy causes, but somehow this is not enough. I'm still living comfortably while billions of people are not. Just about everyone has said this to themself at one time or another. What makes it easy for guys like Gore, Bush, Clinton, etc. to spend hundreds of millions on campaigns with full knowledge of hungry kids? What makes it easy for Ursula to spend $4 per pack of cigarettes, god knows how much on coffee and computer related things, while knowing full well that there are pre-pubescent children forced into prostitution just because they don't have anything? I confess that as soon as those Save-the-Children commercials used to come on, I would turn the station and wait 40 seconds to go back. I became bitter over years because when I reached out to help people in the past they have bitten me just like in the snake allegory. For instance, a few years back I gave this girl a ride home (30 miles out of the way) because the guy she was dating had a "real' girlfriend coming that night, so he left her outside of a 7-11 30 miles away from her home. I was just getting off work, it back in the day when I was doing comp. operator work, it was like 2AM, I was doing end of session and was really ready to go home. Anyway I took her home only to find the next day she stole some of my cassettes. Granted cassettes aren't that valuable and at least she didn't have to worry about some creep trying to molest her for the ride. I just thought that was pretty shabby of her to steal from me as if I was the one that left her stranded. This somehow doesn't excuse me from eating and living comfortably while knowing what is going on in the world. I had to look at it from a higher perspective, suppose there is this God that judges us in the end. How do you think this God would feel about me? I'm gonna burn if all that stuff in the Bible is true. Burn Baby Burn! I wish I had a mentor to steer me in the right direction. Some all knowing person that understands that I'm a complete idiot, but still loves me enough to show me how not to be a complete idiot. My mother told me alot about how not to get into an abusive relationship and she stressed education, but that was it. Now that she has passed away (my pops? he may make the Karamazov father look the angel), I have to look to books like this to help me learn how to be around another human being. Now I need one how to be a better human being, Got any suggestions?
posted by Lady Ursula at 1:05 AM