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Ok it has been a few. I am deeply depressed but not for long. I'm going to use my "real" life diary for my gratitude list this time. I've spent most of my online time visiting the pages to the left and everytime I would get ready to log on to Blogger, I kept hitting links on the new update list! I feel so isolated. This is weird because up until now I've been one of those solitary freaks. I've always valued my time alone and now I feel contempt for it. I'm still in my dictionary but now I've added the discomfort of index cards. Fighting with my sister, who I just realized has been using me as her emotional punching bag. Next week sparks the beginning of apartment hunting. This is scary, because I plan to stay here in New Jersey. Have you seen rent rates for Jersey lately? It's absolutely absurd. They are charging up to $750 just for efficiency units (i.e. rooms the size of my closet with a makeshift stove and pet roaches thrown in as bonuses) I'm truly afraid of moving out again. At least here we deal with the occasional spider or hundred leg crawler, but roaches? I'm not too sure if I want to share my space with them. I've heard nightmarish accounts of people that are forced to live with them. I sympathize. However, this means one thing: Instead of just one job, I must find two. So I may be asking you "Would you like fries with that?" That's all for now, I'm way too pms-ing.

posted by Lady Ursula at 12:46 AM