I am really singing the blues today. That is my first and final warning. I'm suffering from what a lot of people must be suffering from: getting old and not being Bill Gates or Madonna.

I will be 26 years-old next month, and I have accomplished absolutely nothing noteworthy. My greatest memories are of the summers I got to follow the Grateful Dead. Being the optimistic Aquarian that I am, I am pledging (to myself) to do something about this mess. I refuse to become a wasted gift.

I am not a Writer. I can sing and dance with great spirit. I try to be a good person. I like computers. I design fashion for drag queens, but never told a drag queen about it.I can't sew, but I have a sewing machine and sewing how-to manual. I absolutely enjoy learning; especially learning languages. I have no mother, she passed away in '95. I have no friends; they either stole from me, lied to me, forgot about me, or expected the impossible from me. That is actually reciprocal, I don't like to admit it, but I am very critical of others. The only thing I am sure of is that I want and I deserve a better life. Also I want to be rich and famous. The major problems are: I don't know which of my "talents" to use to get those things. I could actually skip over the famous part, because the people I want to be loved and admired by are my two nephews and my dear and only niece.

I apologize if you accidentally came upon this weblog and wish you hadn't. Today I'm using it to vent and hopefully find someone that it is in the same position (or was in the same position) that will share some wisdom and/or express how they can relate to me. Please no criticism; unless it is constructive. I'll do most of the name-calling and spirit-bashing on my own!

posted by Lady Ursula at 5:24 AM